{:The Rantings of Naida:}

[naidayeni]

Entry 1

Dear Diary,

Even now, years later, my dad's afflictions still come back on me. I haven't been able to get it out of my head all day, and the fact that my sister sent me a raving message yesterday didn't help any. She said there was no reason that I should stay at Hogwarts; that it was a waste of time and that since father was gone, no witch on the Yeni family tree would be forced to spend time there.
I miss my snakes; speaking Parselmouth isn't accepted around most people here, and so if I want to speak to any of my scalely friends, I have to do it away from them all. They just don't understand me..
I just don't understand what she means. It's pretty cool here, especially after the fact that Abbie has been helping me through. For a Hufflepuff, she can be pretty rad sometimes. True, who says rad anymore, but its my mind, so who gives a crap! Its just sucks, being the only one out of my few friends that doesn't have a dad to talk about. Conversing with the paintings proves that they haven't talked to a student in ages, that didn't have a father to talk to. But who gives a' bloody hell about him anymore; he isn't important. Still...
NEXT TOPIC, NAIDA, GEEZ!! Ah, my friggin temper flares again.
Did I not tell you? Oh my lord, I actually went down to Diagon Alley today, to get my stuff before Hogwarts opens up again. I'm so excited! I have been acting lately like I don't care, which usually, okay, I don't; but in all reality of it, my heart skips a beat when I think about spending time with Jude again.
And even today!, I saw him in Madaam Malkin's shop! I walk into a friggin robe shop and see the boy! Dang it seems like he's everywhere, but really...I don't think I have a problem with that.
I flirted with him a little, not at first, but when he starts up with his eyes, his hands, and his lips..oh, who can resist him?!?! Hottie much? Of course if that Slytherin pighead knew it, his ego would go throug the roof! Still, he knows he's hot, and even though he won't admit it, I'm beginning to think he likes me.
Who knows? Hopefully, the answers will be brought to me someday soon! *claps*!

-Nai Love-

[naidayeni]

Entry 2

Dear Diary,


Is it really so hard to pay attention to the world around you through all this chaos? I didn't think it was possible...to be more confused than I used to be. But now, it seems like my world is nearly falling apart, and I don't understand half the things that I'M even saying anymore. About Jude, diary, there wasn't even anything there in the first place. I mean, I think my mind thought it wasssss...but in the end, nothing ever existed.
Abbie and I haven't spoken in a while. The little Hufflepuff needs to get her booty over to me in the hallways, because I may not get along with her all the time, but in confusing times like this someone is being needed for me to talk to. I still can't talk to Mikey or Tiger...Tiger is a joke, and Mikey is just too plum irritated with me to spend a few second in my presence. So here I am, as usual, alone on the side of a hill behind Hogwarts; writing in my freakin diary like I'm some two-year old with nothing to occupy my time. What else am I supposed to do, study?!
Yeah, that'll be the day. Oh, did I tell you I got a letter back from my aunty yesterday. It was all in German, guwad do I get tired of still having to translate that in my head. I hear so much of British English around here that I can barely speak my native tongue half the time.
But, no, my aunt wanted to make sure that I know I can come home whenever I need to. She knows with my parents "gone", that I need to have some support system in my life, which is more than likely true.
Maybe that is why my head has been so scrambled lately? I don't know, but whatever it is, it needs to exit and fast. For one of the first times in a long time, I cried yesterday. Naida Yeni of the Yeni Wicken Council, in Hei`cken, Germany, cried her bloody eyes out. Even now I'm not sure why, but its a good relief system, to cry. I hate myself for it now...everything seems like I'm beginning to loose my edge. Sometime shortly, I need to have some time to do some damn...damn..SOMETHING! Something back in my nature!

My whole world is unraveling, and I don't know what the bloody hell is causing it...why am I so screwed up, diary?

-Nai-

[naidayeni]

Entry 3

Dear Diary,

Hahahahaha...yeah, I'm writing to you once again. Now that my classes are starting up again, the feelings of remorse and irritation from my past and present have definetly diminished. I don't feel helpless anymore, don't feel sad, and a thought about my dad hasn't come up in days. I used to feel that he may come back; that the banishment and his mysterious disappearance will suddenly be nay, and that he would return to finish my mental mind off. But I don't care anymore; my sister made sure I didn't think that anymore, before I went to school this year.
So far, I've pretty much connected with the same people I talked to last year. There is a new teacher here; Professor Orrin, and he is a major pain. He doesn't know Naida..he definetly doesn't understand anything about me. Its hilarious, actually, how a man like himself thinks that they can just take points away from my House, and then I'm suddenly going to become a perfect little angel and take down all his notes. Oh yeah, once again, haha..he needs to buck up before the students around here castrate'em.
I actually spent a little time in the Library the other day, even stumbled upon an old friend. I may say that she is too annoying to me, since she doesn't have a "darker", "gloomier" look on the world like I do. But really, I don't think thats true...she's pretty cool. That hellion Tonya was the one that woke our dorm up in the first place, with that damned alarm clock.
Now, I'm in that dorm, on my top bunk, I just got out of my {Transfig} CLASS. Yawn! Its eight 6'oclock, and someone will be coming in here soon. I think that would be the one thing that would get me embarassed..I'll write you later, hopefully, something exciting will happen around this boring old place..8|

-Naida Luvvy-